i need..

i dream even when i do not care to. 

i think even when i do not need to.

i walk even when i do not have to.

i cry even when i do not want to.

i do things that i myself do not know why. i find myself drawing ink on a white piece of paper, not knowing the shape or even the colour i've drawn. i look into the sky, and find myself so distant away from the stars and the moon. i want to go there, i want to be closer to space. i want to fly, fly off this surface of earth and dirt, to a brand new place where nothing can touch me, nothing can hurt me. i want a lot of things, but i can only get this much, and that is reality. Sometimes, or rather, many times, we get stuffs that we do not want and we do not get the things that we want. But i guess, we do always get what we need, even at times we do not know that that very thing is what we really need. We may not want it, but we actually needed it to wake us up, or make us a stronger and better person.

we want a lot of things, but truly it is only those things that we need we get. And i guess, we should be thankful, because, if we get what we want all the time, we might end up spoilt and destroyed. But what we need will always make us a better person tomorrow and the day after and in the future. 

wonders..

I wonder how, I wonder why and I stop wondering.

Because, there is no point in doing so.

Instead, I started staring into empty space; this time, pretend to wonder, but in actual fact it is all blank in the very lobes that control my thoughts and movements. 

Very ironic it is, where I found it pointless to actually think and replaced it with an even meaningless act of "thinking". Especially on a stage with no audience or judges. 

Then I wonder how, and I wonder why, and I stop wondering..

Because, there is no point..

Am I?

Am I chasing after the wind, that comes and caress my face and disappears the next moment?

Am I following the rainbow, which it's end never seem to come to pass?

Am I running a race with no ending line drawn?

Am I walking on muddy pool, that turned out to be sinking sands, slowly sucking me in?

Am I flying in the sky, only to find myself falling like a rock with no wings?

Am I mesmerized by the sun and it's sheer brightness, only to find myself blind the very next second?

Am I jumping on concrete ground with no shoes on, bleeding away with wounds and scratches on my feet?

Am I stupid?

yes..

Love..

Now these three remain - faith, love and hope; but the greatest of them all is love. 

I can say so much about love and describe it so well with words. But nothing compares to this; when love is put up to compete on the same platform as faith and hope, it stood out as the winner. That proves it all. As I have always said, with love comes life. Live a life with love and your life will not just be a living or existence, but more than that, it truly becomes a life in a life itself.

Love never fails..