Loss...

How does it feel to lose someone you love? Well, i know the answer. Losing someone you love hurts, it pains and its grieving. You will question alot about life, death and even God many times. You will feel so dazed and so lost, not knowing what to think of and lose all the mood you have in something which you are doing in an instant. Its not easy to lose someone that you love, especially in such a sudden moment of time, catching you out of guard. You will mourn, you will cry, you just cant be bothered about everything around you. It is like losing your soul and yet at the same time your body still dwells among man. Your mind will be oblivious to the surroundings many times and when you are alone you will just find the silence depressing. Yea, losing someone is hard, and losing someone you love is harder still. Nothing is easy, nothing is simple, life is complicated as death is almost the same as well. Though no matter how many times i tell myself that i should rejoice instead of grieve for the person is in a better place now, i still find it hard to rejoice deep down in my heart. Knowing that it is over and the person is in a better place and actually accepting it are two different things. I tried my best to remain strong and happy but still i fail, only to find myself grieving even more when i am alone. Then i came upon Ecclesiastes 3:1 and 4- For everything there is a season, and a time for every matter under heaven. A time to mourn and a time to rejoice. It took me some time to register this into my head, and before i actually knew it, i was grieving over the loss again. I am still in grief, no doubt about that, especially when i am alone, but soon this season will come to an end then a season to rejoice will come into the picture. Though happiness may not always be with me, but the JOY i have in Him would last forever and ever, never coming to an end, for it is a joy of eternity and a joy of life. Am i sad? Yes, i am. But not for very long, for the time will come when i rise and rejoice again.

Death is nature of life, a common destiny for all living things.