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When we were kids, we did not have much to bother with. We run as we like, we talk as we like, we even do whatever that pleases us without giving a single care or worry to the consequences of our actions. 

Then we grew older. We start to care about our appearance, what we do in public, whether it will cause us to be embarrassed, or how people looked at us in every aspect of our lives. We became so self conscious that we think more than twice before we say a word or get involve in certain things.

And just about time when we were feeling so tied down by what other people sees of us, someone comes along in our lives and sweep our feet away. We fell in like, then we chose to love the very person. Then our actions began to be focus on that very person; whether he or she likes how we dressed, or whether we embarrassed ourselves in front of them. Slowly, we began to be so oblivious to the people around us. And when we started going out with the very person we fell in love with, nothing else seems to matter anymore. What people say about you, what people think about you, because all that we care is what the very person side by side with us, holding our hands think about us. All we ever want is to be the hero in the person's eyes. 

Then along the way, we fall from cloud nine to ground zero. We got our hearts' broken, we ran into a wall, and everything shattered into pieces. And life feels like shit because all these while, we were so focus on impressing the very person we loved and now he or she is gone. 

After awhile, we began to pick ourselves up and tell ourselves that our lives are more than just this. So we began getting ourselves involved in activities, keeping ourselves busy, believing that we were moving on, not knowing that all these things are nothing but just distractions. A temporary painkiller that do not last. We try our very best to make ourselves tired to the point where we would not need to drown ourselves to sleep with tears, but it never worked. Then we talked to people; people that seemed to know more than us about all these. As we began to feel that we were getting better, we broke down again, only to find that the only way to get through this is by ourselves. 

And now I look up into the sky and say "help me." . Because I know I cannot do this alone, not without You, not without Your great power and strength. Help me. For as much as I can help myself, i am not strong enough..